Tarot reading, 3/9/10

For those who read cards... this was pretty accurate. Although the readings always depict a bright future... this has been happening for years... where's my nice future?! LOL

Celtic Cross Spread

1. Basis of the matter, or that which brought you to now: 4 of Swords

2. Where you are now: The Lovers

3. Hopes or fears: 3 of Swords

4. Present and passing: 3 of Cups

5. Forces for or against you: 8 of Cups

6. The near future: Death

7. How the near future will evolve: 10 of Cups

8. New Turn of Events and/or the effects of others on you: Ace of Pentacles

9. You in the environment of the future: Temperance

10. Outcome or summation: Wheel of Fortune

I'll let the late (great) Freddie Mercury speak for me...

Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

I work hard every day of my life
I work till I ache my bones
At the end I take home my hard earned pay all on my own -
I get down on my knees
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord - somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me - somebody to love?

(He works hard)

Everyday - I try and I try and I try -
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe
Yeah - yeah yeah yeah

Oh Lord
Somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I'm ok, I'm alright
Ain't gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!

Find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

worrisome weekend

So I'm still not sure what to do about my finances. As soon as I get a moment, I'm going to head over to Green Path Debt Solutions in midtown. I found them through the website for the National Foundation for Credit Counseling. The NFCC was recommended to me by someone as well as mentioned in the Suze Orman book I've just started reading called The Laws of Money. I'm not that hopeful, though, since I tried NovaDebt last year and they couldn't help me. I just made a payment to one of the Chase cards (late) and I have to pay the other one before the 6th while I just got a bill for another payment on the first one. Sigh. I don't even have the rent yet, and I'm not able to go food shopping. Then there's the third credit card. :o(

I managed to shove this crap somewhat to the back of my mind while I was in Boston for the last three days. I got to see the new house Jenne and her family moved into, and it was nice. They even had a gathering for a few people Saturday night, and there was loads of great food... Jenne outdid herself! We even got some hamentaschen for Purim, since I was reminded of the holiday during my long and annoying bus ride to Boston in the terrible rain and wind. There was a young (college age) Jewish couple sitting not too far behind me, and I heard them repeatedly make reference to the girl fasting. I knew Purim was this month, but not exactly when, and I wondered what fasting was for, so I was able to Google it on my iPod Touch. Thank goodness for free WiFi on the BoltBus! :oD The story behind Purim is kind of a cool one, and it's really the only Jewish holiday that's a happy one: http://www.jewfaq.org/holiday9.htm

I really like hamentaschen. ;o)

John Lennon: The New York City Years

A few days before New Year's, Ted and I went to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame annex in SoHo. I'm glad I went before it closed its doors for good on January 3rd. I had been putting off going because the tickets were so damn expensive - $28.85! I felt I could only justify it by going with Ted, who I usually only see once a year. That, and that a portion of the admission went to Spirit Foundations (a charitable foundation set up by John Lennon and Yoko Ono).

It was a fun place... a small tribute to rock n' roll. I really wanted to see "John Lennon: The New York City Years," however, because I'm a huge Beatles fan. I was only 10 when Lennon was killed, but I will never forget the moment I heard the news.

A few things that struck me about the exhibit:

1. John's feelings about New York City and about being a New Yorker
2. All the pages of handwritten lyrics I was able to look at, for songs like "Woman," "(Just Like) Starting Over," and of course "Imagine."
3. Looking at his pen and ink drawings and collages he made. I didn't even know he made collages as gifts for people. On display were collages John made for Ringo Starr and George Harrison.
4. The bloodstained glasses he wore on the last day of his life.

And the capper, the bag containing the clothing he wore December 8, 1980 when he died. His widow, Yoko Ono, chose to display the bag, given to her from St. Luke's Roosevelt Hospital, as a message about gun violence. It was hard to see it and not get choked up.

Dad's cats love him so much.

Love in the Cube

A guy asked his girl to marry him in my store Sunday. Apparently a plan was in the works for a while with this guy, 'cause our business team planned it for him. (I guess he was a Business Customer?) A few of us Blue Shirts got into our street clothes to act as random customers who would get picked for a chance to win an iPod Touch... the unsuspecting girl (I think her name was Shirley?) and her guy were also among those "picked" and led over to the Genius Bar area and given an iPod Touch face down, and told that when we turned it over (when told to), we'd find out if we won. She turned hers over, and it said, "Shirley, will you marry me?" This message was also displayed on the screens above the Genius Bar, as the guy's song of choice played (I'm told it was a tune by Chris Brown! FAIL! LOL). I doubt the chick even heard the song, since the second she saw the proposal and her boyfriend on bended knee, with a huge diamond ring, she started freaking out (in a good way). And said yes.

I bought an everything bagel with cream cheese at Zaro's Bread Basket in Port Authority yesterday morning, and as I was about to pay, the guy behind the counter picked up a boxed assortment of Valentine's cookies and said, "Would you like to get these for your boyfriend... or husband... for Valentine's Day?"

Me: "I don't have either one of those."
Him: "Aw... all the good ones are taken? Isn't that what everyone says?"
Me: "Something like that."
Him: (As he hands me the bag with the bagel) "Well, maybe next year, you'll be able to get one of these for someone special."
Me: "HA!"

I hate Valentine's Day. I hate Christmas the most, but Valentine's comes in second, because like Xmas, there's so much expectation behind it. Out of all the V-Days I've lived through and had a significant other to share it with, only ONE was good, and that was in the late '90s. And we celebrated in a non-traditional way, which is perhaps why it was special and good. Last year I bought candy and a card for my now-ex, and the response I got from him was, "Oh, I didn't know we were doing this." Funny how one day can fuck you up. LOL